I woke up 30 mins late from I supposed to but still early actly..(I needed more time (than usual) to get asleep last night).Yes, I planned to be at campus around 7.30 but it didn't happen…and then few people have spoilt my mood..arghh
I misplaced my tiny brooch and a scarf-needle. This lil thing actly ruined a good start today. But as I decided to find it first here n there, time had passed 7.30 then..isk..ok, jz borrowed from shams…xjumpa2..huuu
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I was not late, just not early enough. Don't ever talk like I am a baddddddddddd committee ever, okay. Thank God I chose to keep silent
Though I felt so 'wut the heck'-laaa …
Hello~ I jz asked bout ur othr frens..a basa-basi talk..n then u suddenly said.. 'kenapa SU pon dtg lambat/baru dtg ?'something like that..then muka mcm tak puas hati, langsung tak pandang sy.
If I were in a good mood, I wud reply ' mestilaa..I kan vip..' ;P
But it wasn't anyway..malas nak layan mulut2 cmtu. Biaq pi larhh..xpuas hati la tu kena bangun awal. ;P
I also met others some more, who happily boiled up my temper..G.E.R.A.M okayyy..again, sabarr (wpon tlepas gak sedas dua..haihh)
Walking back, I found myself as a tortured-toy or a machine. If I did my job, they said nothing of course. But if they thought it was a mistake, they bombarded me with complaints..have they lost a sense that I am still a normal person??? Watch out ur words…hv some manners! If not, just stay away from my life then.huh
The talk was damn interesting anyway. I supposed to have a great morning motivation..yes, I did but slightly 'polluted' by those creatures…
I don't really like ;
- When i tell a friend or anyone around about my problem (so that he/she can help me to give an idea or anything), i just receive a 'ntah', 'tak tahu laa','mana aku tahu' n so on…it is really irritating okay. If I ask anything, it means I put a hope on dat person. Im not a dependant one okay… I can solve it myself and I don't need any sympathy. if you don't want to get involve in my prob, fine! I will never ask u any help anymore.
- When people come to me with many complaints and hope I can solve every single thing for them. So saddd… y don't these ppl AT LEAST think n give any possible solutions so dat i don't take loooonnnnggg time just to find the best one for them..?? come on laa… belajar2 laa pikir sdiri skit..
- When im talking to someone, he/she suddenly change the topic… I can see it clearly that person is not interested to hear.. I hate doing that to others..in fact, it is like appreciation when ppl come to me and wanna share something. For me, to lend my ears for a while is a good thing I can do, though I don't think I must know the stories actly..
- …tagging to anyone. I love do my works without menyusahkan/mengharapkan-orang-lain. I will find any help if I really2 need that. I don't want anyone stress following / waiting for me, so I don't even deserve to be waited. Like what I said b4, im an independent one.
Hari ini sy harap adalah hari yg lebih baik tapi kecewa sebab terkesan dgn ramai orang. Don't give a damn laarrr..
At the end, i thought; do I have a fragile heart? Allah..give me strength..
-j1e-
