malu

hari ni g buat spa..

1st time plak tu g buat benda2 mcm ni, g treatment facial pun xpnh, apatah lg spa.. huhu

saya malu... malunya saya.. tepon mama tadi.. mama br blk dr sgpore, she said her car broke down in the middle of singapore checkpoint, enjin meletop..(sgt2 bersyukur coz mama slmt, alhamdulillah Ya Allah ) ingt tak nak cite, tp cite gak pasal buat spa, mama kata bestnyaaa!! ( i wish she was here, sbb mama sgt teringin buat spa2 ni, cuma sngt mahal kt msia, dah janji dgn mama td, if mama dtg nk bawak g buat spa..) dlu time g bandung mama mintak wie g bwkkn, tp memandangkan dia x buat spa, so dia pon xtau nk g mana.. kalau dgn mama x malu kot.. hehe

maafla mbk, saya berpuluh2 kali cakap sy malu.. hahahahahaha... td mama ckp, apa nk malu, kan perempuan.. tp sy ttp maluu... next spa? tggu je la g mama... haha..

okla.. sekian.. malu2 ^^

let the reality becomes fantasy. eyh?

okay. im scared.
when my seniors who are doing Ho back home shared their so-called horrible stories of a houseman, i was so speechless..imagined how would my life turn to be few years ahead. 

but...


there is someone who has suddenly appeared from facebook (haha..sounds funny coz actly i stalked him) and inspires me to be a great doctor one day! 


ce cite, ce cite..


nah...biarlah rahsia...huahuahua


ok, focus, focus, focus..
reality is scary. so??? u still have to face it some how. 
positive thinking n spirits - regenerated, refreshed!


rabbi yassir wa laa tu 'assir...


bismillah...

-j1e-

prep

hundred done. hundred more to go.
so sloww..~_~


ramai tanya, 'eh, x sampai sebulan lagi ni...ko camne? rilek je..'


*hekk...macam nak garu kepala je..huhu*


'macam ni la..kadang2 aku terbuat muka tension orang tegur jangan tension2. kalau buat hepi2 orang tegur kenapa macam rilek sangat, takde perasaan..'


ok, tak reti la nak menjawab.
senang cite - mixed feelings!


hrmm..im thinking ape lagi tak beres. banyakkkk.! 
- sourvenirs : janji mid may siap
- gift bags : mid may jugak
- paper bags : 100 more..DIY
- shoes 4 hantaran : x cari lagi!!!
- baju 4 hantaran : esok kot siap
- beadworks 4 baju majlis 3hb : mid may
- tudung 4 majlis 3hb : no idea yet~~~! eh, dh dpt idea. pakai tudung kain mcm akad je la. simple.
etc..etc...(banyak betol benda2 remeh tapi perlu ada...malas nak taip)
note: tanak hire mak andam. nak buat sendiri. jadi mcm badut pon badut la. siapa paksa, sy mogok tak nak kawen. (booo~~)


kat kampung lagi la memeningkan kann...makan2, kerusi meja, rumah semua..oh my...
Ya Allah, permudahkanlah urusan kami...aamin


Cakap pasal majlis memang terrrrrrrlalu banyak kena setel.
yang tak perlu saya setel pon saya akan terfikir-fikir. selalu ada la yang tak buat kepala rilek.huhu
ujiannn..assobru.. 


Sekarang, kena start revising all the practical skills dat hv been learnt b4..
OSCE.............is cominggggggggg~~~
it sounds scary. it does haunt me. 
1st june. 2nd june. 3rd june. these haunted trios never failed giving me 'stress feelings'.
note: i have to study paediatrics some more.. IKA-IKA-IKA !!!


ok, pkp pny keje i tak setel lagi. *mamposs* gue...
nak pengsan.
daa..

-j1e-

moron

saya stress okay je.
saya stress tak apa2.
saya stress hepi.


a fren adviced me .'hazirah, don't stress yourself out. ur big day will come soon. be happy. u have to look gorgeous on that day!'


erk..ok. 
saya mmg jenis banyak pikir.
kdg2 rasa nak nangis.
juz knw i called my dad. he said this coming friday will be held a family meeting..
teringat my mom ckp abah nak buat masak2 sama2 saudara jgk 4 kenduri nanti.
tanak tempah catering. kalau buat catering memang tak brp kena la skit.
then suddenly, i feel so sad.
im here...struggling wif my studies...my beloved ones there are working for my wed.
son~sob~sob~


oh, sudahlah hazirah.
belajar jadi seorang yang lebih tabah.
Allah sedang tunjuk sesuatu...open your heart.


alhamdulillah.............


-j1e-

aku perlu udara baru.

pejam mata

membuatku suram dari punca gelita

dihimpit butir kecil mengaburkan

membingungkan

meresahkan...menyesakkan..

di manakah lubang cahaya

punya sinar tembus yang nyaman menenangkan

merangkaklah mencari

udara nyaman itu menyapaku..

lenyapkanlah gelita itu dari pancainderaku..

-sara-

3rd may 2011

11.55am